Secret Conversation

Lux: "She's in one of those moods again."

Dallas: "How can you tell?"

Lux: "Easy, something will be said that makes her second guess herself and then it's all down hill from there."

Dallas: "No, but how can you tell? Like what does she do physically?"

Lux: "You mean you don't notice when she randomly starts playing with her hair? Or when she becomes super quiet and looks down all the time?"

Dallas: "Well I have, but usually I'm busy telling her to straighten up and smile."

Lux: "Yeah and that really helps!"

Dallas: "You don't have to be mean..."

Lux: "I apologize Dallas, it's just... I mean Christ! I'm under so much stress, I'm practically working over time on a 24/7 shift!"

Dallas: "I know I've been slacking.. Maybe I should try and help out a little more?"

Lux: "That would be great D, so then Blair might not always be harping on us!"

Dallas: "You know why she does it though..."

Lux: "Isn't that why we all do it?"

Dallas: "True.. We're just trying to help her out."

Lux: "I'm tired, so tired."

Dallas: "Take a break to sleep tonight, I'll pull my weight tomorrow and Blair and Apollo will do the same. What's been going on?"

Lux: "The normal; school work causes stress and it makes her feel like she can't do it, friend stress causes her to think that they don't really want her, and home stress just makes her... you know."

Dallas: *gasps* "No."

Lux: "Mhm, looks like we're back to square one. And this time.. it'll be on the down low. We don't need things to get out of control. We can't go back to the dark place."

Dallas: "No wonder you've been running on fumes.."

Lux: "You know what I don't understand?"

Dallas: "Hmm?"

Lux: "How come we always resort to this? Becca knows she has a problem, yet she still DOES NOT ask for help."

Dallas: "Two things; pride and fear."

Lux: "What- pride and fear?!"

Dallas: "Pride because she doesn't want to have to admit that she needs help, for admitting it is a weakness to her. It is seen as a failure if she asks. And fear because of what happened all the other times she reached out for help.. They left her."

Lux: "Some people don't really know how to react to someone telling them that though!"

Dallas: "Becca wasn't looking for someone with all the answers. She was looking for an open ear, a shoulder to cry on, and someone who wouldn't leave. She wanted a rock, she got twigs."

Lux: "But things changed after that..."

Dallas: "And you of all people should know that those feelings don't just vanish into thin air! You've had to mask everything."

Lux: "I like to see the good in people, I liked to think that they would still be there in the end. I wish they would just go away, just like Becca wishes.. But we know it won't happen."

Dallas: "So what do we do?"

Lux: "The only thing we can do.. Keep our heads up and put on that mask we wear so well."