Give Me A Sign

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97S66xee0U8

May 6
It's coming up really quick.
It'll be the one year anniversary.
One year since I was at my lowest,
One year since I met Lux,
One year since I went into the hospital.
So let me tell you a story;
Two days, both alike in routines,
In fair Rochester, where we lay our scene,
From ancient pain break to new depression,
Where unwanted thought makes civil hands unclean.
I sit across from my mother at dinner,
We are celebrating our heritage.
I am surprised by my acting skills,
I'm able to smile and laugh, while a battle rages in my heart.
Open the scene to a new time,
I'm making up a test in my least favorite class.
Every now and I then I look up to the clock,
Time is passing quickly and I need to leave.
I almost miss my appointment with Dr. Palzter.
Anxiously waiting in the reception area I run through all the things,
Everything I should share with her.
After safely making into her room,
I sink onto the uncomfortable couch,
A place I know very well,
Everything releases, flood gates are open.
Blair sits next to me, patting my back,
Right now she is the only one with me.
Hours pass and a decision is made,
I can't live like this any longer, I need help.
I'm left alone for a few minutes while Dr. Paltzer sorts things out.
I'm left alone to meet Lux for the very first time.
She covered all the signs, everything,
And I realize how dangerous that is.
Mom comes to get me, and takes me to my new room,
Its cold and lonely, alien to me.
I want home, and happiness.
I need to go through this to get there though.
One year later, and it's almost the same.
The signs are still, they're just hidden.
So I'll give you a sign, if you know how to interpret them.